I really dont know what to do about school or work.
I was doing both, a buncha times..heh but havent managed to stick with anything.
I dont know what it is, I feel so empty inside.
All of my friends are either done college or almost done college....or some even still in highschool. But theyre DOING things with their life....and I'm not.
I feel like I'm going through yet another teenage phaze..lol eventho im 21. But I had to grow up so fast....and eventho I did alot of partying and wild times and stuff like that, I feel like Im just not done yet.
I dont want to settle down. (to a certain extent, i do...but im not talking about drinking every night and doing hard drugs or anything like that) I'm over alot of things, and have changed ALOT. But I still just cant get serious about my future.
I have honestly noooooooooo idea whatsoever what I wanna do or who I wanna be. I cant decide. And it has already been 21 years of me trying to figure out who I am inside..lol :S I'm just gettin nowhere....
Anyways, Im pretty much just rambling now. But my point was, that I'm all alone in taking care of my son during the days and most nights...I have no income except for my baby bonus every month....and I cant go on welfare (for other reasons).
Lets say that I did decide to go back to school (most likely an adult school to get my highschool diploma), am I even still able to get subsidy with pretty much no income at all? I know I am definately going to need daycare for my son......
We all know how much baby bonus is, and as much as it helps out....it definately doesnt pay any bills....or ALL the bills in my case :S
I dunno....I'm pretty much clueless when it comes to all of this stuff. This is my first kid...
Anyone live in Ontario that would possibly know this?