Yeah. So my boyfriend and I found out I was pregnant about two weeks ago. I decided I don't want to continue with the pregnancy. It was such a hard decision for me and I don't know why. I've been having a lot of trouble emotionally lately. I'm crying a lot and quick to snap on my parents and boyfriend. I never ever thought that it would be this hard for me to make this decision. I always said that I would have no problem if I got pregnant again to get an abortion, but it's been hard on me. However, I completely am sure about getting this abortion. I don't have the money or energy for another kid right now and I simply just don't want another or want to be pregnant at this point of time. It's still sucks.
So I researched herbally induced miscarriages after reading about Inga Muscio's story in Cunt. I did massages, took herbs, etc for about 6 days like I was supposed to. It didn't work. So now I have to medically abort which is really straining because my boyfriend lost his job and my hours were cut back at my job dramatically. Pretty much I'll be making 70 bucks every two weeks which barely covers Landon. I have no money saved up at this point and my boyfriend doesn't either. We don't know what to do. We're running out of time because I know it could get really expensive as time goes on. My wonderful best friend and her husband gave us 100 dollars to help out, which we are going to pay back once we have the money, but that still won't be enough. I don't know what to do and I'm extremely stressed out. My parents don't know, and if they did, I highly doubt they'd support or help with money.
Plus I don't know much about actually getting the procedure done and it scares me. I know what they do in the procedures, but I have no clut how it feels, how much it hurts, how much it hurts after.
I'm just unbelievably scared anmd stressed, but I just reallyu want it done and over with.
I guess I just needed to vent...