I dont understand why Im in so much pain. I'm sitting in my room, bawling my eyes out. For no reason. My dad and I had a minor fight on the phone. It wasnt a huge deal. Yet, Im using that as my excuse to cry my eyes out. I feel like somethings wrong with me. I hurt so bad inside, but Im ashamed to let people see that. I hold it in, to cry alone in my room. I cant handle this. I hate it.
Sorry, I just had to vent and I didnt know who to go to. Im ashamed to let people see me like this.
i know that feeling oh too well. if i hadn't taken a nighttime cold pill i would chat you up right now but i think i'm gonna pass out.
sometimes you have to cry to let it all out. i've had more of those nights than i care to admit. sometimes i cry over totally silly shit and sometimes i cry over the important stuff.
i'm gonna be around tomorrow if you need to talk. [/list]
I think its the Valentine's Day blues. Believe me, I've had my share of sitting in my room crying my eyes out today. Plus, you're pregnant, so you're probably feeling at least twice as shitty as you normally would.
Vig hit the nail right on the head when she said sometimes it takes a good cry to make yourself feel better. You've been through alot, so let yourself cry and don't feel ashamed about it.
I know during my pregnancy, things that would normally upset me would have me hysterical. Perhaps hormone changes play a part in this. I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I hate the helpless feeling...
A good cry can be really theraputic at times, though..I usually have one about once a week.
sometimes when i was pregnant i would cry and cry and listen to that song, "where is my mind" by the pixies.
i get that way sometimes. things become so overwhelming at times... like there is soooo much to get done, constantly.
it's okay, it's good to cry.
Have you seen your therapist yet, Steph? You could be depressed, I know I sometimes get that way when I have a depressive episode.
I had an appointment, but had to cancel, because Riley wasnt feeling well and I had a lot to do. I know that I NEED to see her, but Im just ashamed. I was doing really good. I have depression, but I was doing better. I know i need more help.
I was ashamed too. I had been doing SO well and then, as my dad put it, I had a "setback" (I hate that term...as if life and depression are completely linear and you have to start ALL over again if you have a relapse... :roll: that's not how it works). I was afraid my therapist would be dissappointed in me. I saw her on Saturday, and it was SO great. Not only does a therapist help talk you through your problems, but he or she can also serve as an advocate on your behalf. Don't be ashamed. I felt (sometimes I still feel) that I have so much to be ashamed of...keep in mind that depression is a very pervasive illness and can often cause us to do things we would not normally do. They are a symptom of depression, that is all. I'm still working on letting go of my shame, but it HAS to be done in order for me to heal.
Hopefully you'll get another appointment soon.
Good luck, and I hope Riley is feeling better.
Thanks. Im going to make a new appointment tomorrow, and Im going to MAKE myself go no matter what. And Riley is feeling much better! Thanks!
I've started something new in an effort to relax and let my depression/stress/anger/pain subside.....
At night I light a couple of nice-smelling candles, flip off the lights, and put on a relaxation CD (my personal favorites are the Chinese and Polynesian relaxation cds) and just lay there and listen. I feel a zillion times better afterward.
I know that desperate, painful feeling. So you're not alone.
I just wanted to add something. The past week, I cry every night. Over reasons that shouldnt make me cry. My mom said she was too busy to go to the store with me, and I cried. I have been soo frustrated lately, and every little things sends me over the edge. I'm not a mean person, but lately I have been. I snap at my mom constantly and I avoid people because I just dont want to do anything anymore. I had the chance to go see a friend for a coupel hours today, which I normally would have jumped at the chance, because I dont get out much, but I avoided her, because as much as I wanted to go, I just wanted to sit inmy misery. I dont know whats wrong with me but I hate it.
Honey, I hope ya feel better soon. I don't have any advice for you but to try and relax. I don't think the pregnancy hormones are helping the situation for you either. I've been a little whacked out the past week or so and I know that it's from the hormones.
hey,
i just wanted to say i read this and I'm sorry you're having a rough time right now.
if you already know you have depression, it sounds to me at least, if you're experiencing a personality change, that it might be coming over you again, though no doubt the pregnancy hormones are playing a part. definitely keep that appointment with your therapist if you can, and make sure you get treatment. just wanted to say I'm thinking about you, and hopefully you're feeling better soon.