Rest in peace Alli.

words cannot describe how i feel for you, alli and the boys.

i didn't know alli personally, but after finding this website i have learned so much about myself and so many other young mamas out there. i am so grateful she did something like this...

rip alli. we love you and miss you.

I heard, I didn't want to believe it.

It's not your fault, Julie, not your fault at all.

She changed my life. She changed my life.
I came onto girlmom when I was four months pregnant. I was scared out of my mind, didn't know what to do.
Alli greeted me, she was so kind, helped me through so much -- dealing with babydaddy.
She empowered me. Like, I can't even describe in words what she has done for my life. She gave me the language to express myself, to stand up for myself, to be healthy, to be happy, to work on my issues.
With out the language, I couldn't express myself, I couldn't take action, but she wrote, she wrote her heart, her soul, and gave me language that I could do the same.

I remember meeting her for the first time at the mamagathering in LA two years ago. She and Julie were sitting in the entry way, and I was brought over by someone, to meet them. I was so in awe of her, so nurvus about meeting her, but she smiled at me and gave me a hug and I felt like we had been really good friends for a long time.

She has inspired and affected so many people. People all over the country. People who don't even know her have been affected by people who do know her.

God, I can't even write right now. I want to post something wonderful to tell how amazing she was, how much she affected my life, and I can barly see the fucking key board to write much less actually be able to write in a way that people can understand. She was fucking amazing.
I only wish I could live my life with the energy she lived hers. Fuck.

I don't know.... I can't write right now.

wow.

I heard, but didn't want to believe it.

When I first came to GM I talked to Alli through anon comments on her lj because I felt odd on here, talking to her got me through it (this was damn, three almost four years ago) and I had somewhere to share how I felt, about being pregnant.

I feel like I just got punched.

Love to you hon.

Damn.

I know there is nothing I can say to make sense of any of it, but I've been where you are.

I came to GM after Alli stepped down as a mod, so I've never known her. Not really. I came to love her through your posts, because I saw her as you must have seen her. She seemed so beautiful, strong, and simply a wonderful woman. I could tell that you too loved eachother more than anything.

I wish I had known her. I am so sorry.

Julie, I'm so sorry and I'd like to know what you and the boys need.

the bbqs. the way she loved her kid and you and dylan.
the way she lived her life every day.
i love you both.

Julie, I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you. Please remember that this was not your fault and take care of yourself.

I am so sorry, Julie.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Julie, please let us know what we can do for you & the boys, Cade especially. We love you, we love Alli......

-Casey

im so sorry...you and the boys are in my thoughts

Rest in peace beautiful, amazing, inspirational Alli.

Love to Julie, Cade and Dylan. I am so sorry for you loss :cry:

I'm so so sorry. I wish I could say something more.

I'm so sorry Julie.

Julie, I am so sorry. I will be thinking of you and the boys.

I am so sorry. You're all in my thoughts.

I am so sorry...you and the boys will be in my thoughts

i am so sorry . pm me if you need anything

I am in shock. I am so sorry Julie. If you need anything- let me know. Alli was very passionate... I'll never forget that.

Alli inspired me to be more. She showed me that school was possible that becoming my own person was possible that I was more than just a label someone put on me and I'll never forget the guidance and enpowerment she gave me.

Her words moved me, her thoughts made me want to take action, her jokes made me laugh, her attitude commanded respect, she was an amazing and inspiring woman.

She knows you love her.

Wow.
I'm sorry. That's all I can say.
Best wishes to all of you.

alli gave so much of herself to all of us, by telling her truth.

we all can keep fighting her fight-- going back to school, leaving a shitty relationship, falling in love, starting a movement, being a kickass mama, or getting to know the young mama down the block.

girlmamas: its up to us to carry her spirit onwards. keep writing. keep talking.

love to julie, cade, dylan, and alli's family

Oh, my god, I'm numb. I don't know what to think or say. This is such a shock.

Julie, I am so sorry. Please let us know if you need anything.

i'm so sorry Julie. her death is not your fault. please don't think about the what if's too much. none of your actions caused this.

she changed & helped so many people in her life. i wish she could have been with us longer.

i can't stop crying.

I'm sorry, I can't stop checking LJ & GM. I keep thinking this is some sick joke but I know it's not.
I am compelled to tell you Julie, how wonderful YOU are. Don't forget what great things you have done and have yet to do in your life.
I have so much love for you, I wanted you to know it.

Julie, this is Fairytale.
I know I was banned over a year ago, but what-the-fuck-ever.
I'm not planning on staying anyway, or posting other than this one time.
I just got the news about Alli.
I'm so sorry, so terribly sorry.
How did this happen?
I'm at a loss... the Alli I knew (admittedly only briefly, through this site) was strong! A warrior goddess.
She was passionate and dynamic and outward-reaching; she improved the lives of so many.
I am posting to tell you, call me if you need help.
I am still in Austin.
Any differences we had in the past are now forgotten; irrelevant.
The slate is wiped clean.
Specifically, if you need childcare help in the days and weeks ahead, as you try to cope with all you have to cope with or just need some time alone, just call me. I can babysit your boys if you need me to, or my son can. He's a teenager now and is very responsible, excellent with children. I will be more than happy to offer any practical help that I can.
If you need me, email me and I will give you my phone number.

Take care of yourself.
I am very sorry.
That's all; mods, please delete my account.

I'm only new here, so I didn't know Alli.

What I have seen are comments both here and elsewhere about how amazing she was, and will continue to be as her legacy lives on.

I am so very very sorry.

Rest in peace, Alli.

Julie, I'm so sorry. Alli was so smart and strong; the loss is horrible to contemplate. Sending you as much love and good wishes as possible. None of us can possibly begin to understand how hard this is for you.

Much love,

Bee

I argued with Alli, a lot. She was always challenging me, trying to get me to be better, and I resisted a lot at first. She was the only woman I've ever met who made me feel a little better about myself and feminism. I always thought that certain issues I faced made me less of a feminist, I knew I believed in it but didn't feel I had the right to call myself one. I was scared of her at first.. but then found out that her and I were going through very similar things, similar issues. I realized that if she could be, and oh, she was, she was one of the most amazing feminists and activists I've ever personally known.. then maybe I could be too. She gave me strength, she made me realize that if she could fight certain things, I could too. It was only after I met her that I fully found my voice, my value. She inspired, and will continue to inspire through her work and writing, literally thousands of women across the country. She was, and always will be, amazing.

I'm so sorry that this happened Julie. I haven't really stopped crying since yesterday. It's such a huge loss for the feminist world and for those who love her, those she's touched along the way. I know your first instinct is to blame yourself, but please don't. You know she wouldn't want you to blame yourself either. This is not your fault. These things happen and they're tragic, but you must not blame yourself. This is not your fault. If you need anything, at all, for you or the boys, I'll do what I can. I'm waiting until my paycheque and then I'm going to have something made for you, but I'd also like to help out other ways if I can, just let me know and I'll send everything at once.

Much love to you, for you and the boys. If you want to talk, you know how to get a hold of me. You're in my thoughts.

I heard what happened yesterday, but I didn't fully believe it until I read this post. I don't post on girlmom anymore, but I knew Alli IRL.

Alli was an inspiration. I read an essay she wrote and happened to see a picture of her online. I was so inspired that I saw her in a bookstore and walked up and introduced myself. She was brave and strong and she changed so many lives.

What me my friends always said about Alli and Julie after we saw them was, Wow they are so cute and they really love each other. Your love was obvious and shining between you. I am immensely sorry for you Julie and your children. I am sorry for all of us who Alli touched.

I am available if you need anything. Anything.