She was alive at 5:15 am Texas time. On the phone. Coherent. Fine.
She was found approx. noon Texas time. I say found. We don't know what time she died. Dead on the floor, heading to the door. She didn't go easy, no matter what you might have heard. Did you think she'd do anything but fight to the last second?
She was extensively bruised, per the coroner. You may have seen it at the funeral.
Toxicology is pending. The woman who did the autopsy told me she may have it kicked backed to her. Things aren't adding up. Investigation ongoing.
I read that people don't need facts. That's interesting. Cade needs them. I do. I guess facts dont matter to some. Except truth was important to her and now its paramount to me.
Let's not be afraid of facts, shall we.
Don't like this?
THEN FUCK YOU FOREVER Got it? FUCK YOU...whoever you are and whatever you think
I don't know how anyone will twist this...want to take someone on? Make it me. Oh, please. Make it me. I'm begging you. By the goddess and god I will take you on and never be silent. Ever.
I swear Alli's soul will speak to us and the detectives will do the rest.
Allison died alone. Fucking broken hearted and bruised. GOT THAT? GOT IT? THAT IS HOW SHE DIED> Deny it, anyone?
Take me on..tell me I'm lying. I am the only one who has police reports beside her dad.
Oh god, I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I'm sorr you, your husband, julie and cade have to deal with this. It's not right.
For all the good and wonderful things the internet does, it can suck the life right out of you, and crush your soul.
I'm sorry you are having to defend yourself and talk about things you shouldnt have to be right now.
This isnt fair, and It's not right.
I wish there was something I could do. I wish I could turn back time and give you your daughter back. I wish I could shut up all the idiots that are prying thier noses into the lives of a girl they have probably never even met.
Allisons Mom, I have a question, if you don't mind. I was there, I was wearing a pink dress. I'm not trying to be rude or invasive with this question, I'm just trying to understand. Was the pending police investigation the reason Julie was not mentioned at the funeral at all? Or was it a religious reason?
You don't have to answer, I realize this is personal, and I don't blame you for questioning my motives if you are. I am just wondering, and if you'd like to contact me privately my email address is
. I'm just trying to understand, really, and no one owes me any explanations. But I think a lot of people are wondering about that, at least the girls here who saw how much Alli expressed her love for Julie.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking thoughts of love and healing, enveloping you and Alli's dad and sister and Cade and Julie and Dylan and also everyone reading this. I seriously have no hatred or bad feelings for anyone right now, I am just still too bewildered. This is so hard and painful.
i dont think in this time we need to ask anything... alli's mom made it clear as to why julie want spoke of. and this is not the place to ask more questions....
mrs crews... i was there at the funeral, and im so sorry for everything that you, your husbadn, cade , and your family are dealing with. if you need anything, dont hesitate to contact one of us
I'm sure that Ms. Crews can speak for herself, and I certainly can't speak for her, but about the question of why Julie wasn't mentioned by the minister at the funeral--a lot of people have been asking it and I think it's a fair question.
Kim and Glen did not speak at the funeral themselves, but they said afterwards that the exclusion was not what they wanted.
Imagine getting a call that your 22-year-old baby has died. You have to travel from California to Texas to get the body. Your baby is dead. Coroner reports, autopsy, police reports. Your baby is dead. All over the internet it says that she committed suicide and you know that she didn't. You have a week to put on a funeral. People are calling every day from all over the country to find out when it is. Your other baby is graduating from high school. You are now full-time mama to your young grandson. Your baby is dead. Mortuary. Church. Flowers. Coffin. The phone is ringing off the hook. Your baby is dead and your world has shattered and strangers are on the phone and strangers are on the internet and you have one week to deal with all of this and put on a funeral.
I don't speak for Kim and Glen, I'm just saying that under the same circumstances, you, too, might pull the name of some old minister out of a hat and that minister might fuck up.
All love to Alli's entire family. All love to Alli.
I am late with this i know I am so sorry to her family and friends my heart goes out to you all.
Alli was a wonderful person. She made me want to be a better person. She made me want to rethink a lot of things and start to question things. She opened my eyes and helped me see things i didnt want to see.
Kim, Alli's mom, like I said before, we only met a time or two and I don't know if you remember me, but that's not really the point in what I'm going to say.
I need answers too. I left CA in January and that made it impossible to be there with you and your family and all those who are grieving this tragedy. But here's the strange thing for me, I really wanted to be there more than anything.
Let me clarify.
I lost my father at 9 yrs old, and then my mother at 13. I was raised by my grandmother. I have only seen 2 bodies in my life, and neither of them were my parents. I just couldn't bring myself to see that, to look at them and try to process it. In the past 5 years I have lost 5 of my friends in very unnatural ways. I cried and morned, but again could not bring myself to go and look and try to process.
But suddenly that all feels different and I don't know why. I wanted so badly to be there in Fallbrook, I wanted to see her and touch her face. It makes no sense, but I think some of it may be it's hard to start healing with nothing adds up. I still do not have answers to the events surrounding my father's death and have come to realize that I never will.
But all I can think of right now is how much I wanted to be there.
Maybe it's because I just want to live the next 20 years for Cade until he is grown up enough to try and get through one fucking mother's day without having a nervous breakdown. Maybe it's because I look at my daughter and realize that she has not wonderful loving grandmother or grandfather or aunt or uncle that could care for her like I know you do and will for Cade.
Love each other like you love her, like she loves you. Hang on to each other tight whenever you need to.
I will write my letter to Cade soon.
You are all in my thoughts everyday, just as Alli is.
Thank you for posting this. We are all craving some truth and we all understand that there has been much more untruth than truth about Alli floating around the internet. I can't imagine how you put together the strength to read.
My wife and I are putting our letters for you and Cade together and will send these to you soon.
When every last post comes in..when it's time for everyone else to move on.
There is no moving on for Cade and Dad and me.
Each day feels like the first.
May this be the last word.
You are so beautiful.
Mourning is never a process and it never ends. I never talk about those who I've lost but it does not mean I do not think about them. I did not know Alli but she will always be in my heart. Everyday I sign onto GM and think about what a beautiful place she's created and what an impact she's made on these young mama's lifes. And I know as Girl-Mom grows and mamas come and go, she will never be forgotten. I know that you will never move on, that this tradgey will be stuck like a knife in your hearts forever but I pray that as each day passes, it will get easier for you, Alli's dad and young Cade.
kim, every day i pray for you and your family. i know that you and your husband and cade and julie will never "get over" this. i only pray that you come to find peace and continue to find ways to communicate with alli. i know she is watching over all of you.
This is Allisons mom
What is known
She was alive at 5:15 am Texas time. On the phone. Coherent. Fine.
She was found approx. noon Texas time. I say found. We don't know what time she died. Dead on the floor, heading to the door. She didn't go easy, no matter what you might have heard. Did you think she'd do anything but fight to the last second?
She was extensively bruised, per the coroner. You may have seen it at the funeral.
Toxicology is pending. The woman who did the autopsy told me she may have it kicked backed to her. Things aren't adding up. Investigation ongoing.
I read that people don't need facts. That's interesting. Cade needs them. I do. I guess facts dont matter to some. Except truth was important to her and now its paramount to me.
Let's not be afraid of facts, shall we.
Don't like this?
THEN FUCK YOU FOREVER Got it? FUCK YOU...whoever you are and whatever you think
I don't know how anyone will twist this...want to take someone on? Make it me. Oh, please. Make it me. I'm begging you. By the goddess and god I will take you on and never be silent. Ever.
I swear Alli's soul will speak to us and the detectives will do the rest.
Allison died alone. Fucking broken hearted and bruised. GOT THAT? GOT IT? THAT IS HOW SHE DIED> Deny it, anyone?
Take me on..tell me I'm lying. I am the only one who has police reports beside her dad.
Oh god, I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I'm sorr you, your husband, julie and cade have to deal with this. It's not right.
For all the good and wonderful things the internet does, it can suck the life right out of you, and crush your soul.
I'm sorry you are having to defend yourself and talk about things you shouldnt have to be right now.
This isnt fair, and It's not right.
I wish there was something I could do. I wish I could turn back time and give you your daughter back. I wish I could shut up all the idiots that are prying thier noses into the lives of a girl they have probably never even met.
All my love to you, tho i know it wont help.
-Chelsea (the girl who made the pins)
Allisons Mom, I have a question, if you don't mind. I was there, I was wearing a pink dress. I'm not trying to be rude or invasive with this question, I'm just trying to understand. Was the pending police investigation the reason Julie was not mentioned at the funeral at all? Or was it a religious reason?
You don't have to answer, I realize this is personal, and I don't blame you for questioning my motives if you are. I am just wondering, and if you'd like to contact me privately my email address is
. I'm just trying to understand, really, and no one owes me any explanations. But I think a lot of people are wondering about that, at least the girls here who saw how much Alli expressed her love for Julie.
I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking thoughts of love and healing, enveloping you and Alli's dad and sister and Cade and Julie and Dylan and also everyone reading this. I seriously have no hatred or bad feelings for anyone right now, I am just still too bewildered. This is so hard and painful.
i dont think in this time we need to ask anything... alli's mom made it clear as to why julie want spoke of. and this is not the place to ask more questions....
mrs crews... i was there at the funeral, and im so sorry for everything that you, your husbadn, cade , and your family are dealing with. if you need anything, dont hesitate to contact one of us
love
erinn
I'm sure that Ms. Crews can speak for herself, and I certainly can't speak for her, but about the question of why Julie wasn't mentioned by the minister at the funeral--a lot of people have been asking it and I think it's a fair question.
Kim and Glen did not speak at the funeral themselves, but they said afterwards that the exclusion was not what they wanted.
Imagine getting a call that your 22-year-old baby has died. You have to travel from California to Texas to get the body. Your baby is dead. Coroner reports, autopsy, police reports. Your baby is dead. All over the internet it says that she committed suicide and you know that she didn't. You have a week to put on a funeral. People are calling every day from all over the country to find out when it is. Your other baby is graduating from high school. You are now full-time mama to your young grandson. Your baby is dead. Mortuary. Church. Flowers. Coffin. The phone is ringing off the hook. Your baby is dead and your world has shattered and strangers are on the phone and strangers are on the internet and you have one week to deal with all of this and put on a funeral.
I don't speak for Kim and Glen, I'm just saying that under the same circumstances, you, too, might pull the name of some old minister out of a hat and that minister might fuck up.
All love to Alli's entire family. All love to Alli.
Way to put it in perspective Ariel.
Well fucking said.
I am late with this i know I am so sorry to her family and friends my heart goes out to you all.
Alli was a wonderful person. She made me want to be a better person. She made me want to rethink a lot of things and start to question things. She opened my eyes and helped me see things i didnt want to see.
Kim, Alli's mom, like I said before, we only met a time or two and I don't know if you remember me, but that's not really the point in what I'm going to say.
I need answers too. I left CA in January and that made it impossible to be there with you and your family and all those who are grieving this tragedy. But here's the strange thing for me, I really wanted to be there more than anything.
Let me clarify.
I lost my father at 9 yrs old, and then my mother at 13. I was raised by my grandmother. I have only seen 2 bodies in my life, and neither of them were my parents. I just couldn't bring myself to see that, to look at them and try to process it. In the past 5 years I have lost 5 of my friends in very unnatural ways. I cried and morned, but again could not bring myself to go and look and try to process.
But suddenly that all feels different and I don't know why. I wanted so badly to be there in Fallbrook, I wanted to see her and touch her face. It makes no sense, but I think some of it may be it's hard to start healing with nothing adds up. I still do not have answers to the events surrounding my father's death and have come to realize that I never will.
But all I can think of right now is how much I wanted to be there.
Maybe it's because I just want to live the next 20 years for Cade until he is grown up enough to try and get through one fucking mother's day without having a nervous breakdown. Maybe it's because I look at my daughter and realize that she has not wonderful loving grandmother or grandfather or aunt or uncle that could care for her like I know you do and will for Cade.
Love each other like you love her, like she loves you. Hang on to each other tight whenever you need to.
I will write my letter to Cade soon.
You are all in my thoughts everyday, just as Alli is.
Thank you for posting this. We are all craving some truth and we all understand that there has been much more untruth than truth about Alli floating around the internet. I can't imagine how you put together the strength to read.
My wife and I are putting our letters for you and Cade together and will send these to you soon.
When every last post comes in..when it's time for everyone else to move on.
There is no moving on for Cade and Dad and me.
Each day feels like the first.
May this be the last word.
You are so beautiful.
Mourning is never a process and it never ends. I never talk about those who I've lost but it does not mean I do not think about them. I did not know Alli but she will always be in my heart. Everyday I sign onto GM and think about what a beautiful place she's created and what an impact she's made on these young mama's lifes. And I know as Girl-Mom grows and mamas come and go, she will never be forgotten. I know that you will never move on, that this tradgey will be stuck like a knife in your hearts forever but I pray that as each day passes, it will get easier for you, Alli's dad and young Cade.
kim, every day i pray for you and your family. i know that you and your husband and cade and julie will never "get over" this. i only pray that you come to find peace and continue to find ways to communicate with alli. i know she is watching over all of you.
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