Re-intro -- been a while, but here's me in too many words

Hey girls.

It's been suggested that I should make a reintroduction as there are a lot of new people here that probably don't know me.

I'm Chrissi, 25 and mom of an awesome, Harry Potter-ish 6 year old boy named Alexander. (Ali for short) I live in Florida and I work in finance.

I became a mom at 19 after my new husband left me; he'd given me the "baby or husband" ultimatum. That time, I chose baby. Becoming a mom is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Well, I raised my kid on my own, lived through a VERY abusive relationship (barely survived is more like it), learned what "pro-choice" means after I chose to have an abortion and shuffled around the country a bit and then took off, out of the country for a bit. During that time, I had horrid luck with selfish, immature men.

Then I came back to the states, resettled and somehow stumbled on a hot, sweet "old" guy that I used to work with. It's eleven months later, my son loves him to pieces, I'm learning how to be the "step-mom" of a kid (girl) that has been raised VERY differently than mine and living with my partner that has the same name as my ex, all my other exes and almost me....Chris.

I'm an opinionated girly girl that uses logic and reason to fight my battles and because of that, I rarely lose an argument....if I have the slightest doubt that I'm wrong, I shut up, research the topic and immediately apologize if I was in any way wrong. I fight for what I believe in but a good solid argument of fact and logic can change my mind -- just don't expect me to change my beliefs because someone "says so."

I love passionately and I dress in Pepto Bismol. My dad describes me as "Mickey Doodle" in my girlyness and I refuse to grow up -- I still live in Neverland. While working in a very professional environment, my desk is decorated in teenage locker decor from Target with a collage of dorky pictures of my son. I refuse to get old even though I grew up a long time ago.

I'm staunchly pro-choice after being ultra pro-life. I have mega strong political opinions and I love a good debate. All the same, sometimes I just need to pout and cry and bury my head in the pillow. I'm a scorpio if there ever was one and just started hating my birthday this year.

I'm one of those chics that's obsessed about my weight but only for myself. I don't give a shit what other people think but I'm terrified of the big, bad metabolism monster. While I'm all "pro-feminism," there are some molds that I just don't fit into.

I love or I really don't like. I can honestly say that I truly love all my friends -- if I don't love them, they can't be a friend. I sanitize my kitchen and am a freak about washing dishes but my car is a disaster and there's clutter everywhere. The laundry has to be done just perfectly or else it will sit in a hamper and wait to be redone, again. Everything is either alphabatized, chronologicalized, chromotilized (by color) or it's not put away at all -- I do NOT have a junk drawer -- that's what the open counter is for. I am a walking contradiction but I can give you a perfectly logical reason for every contradicting, hypocritical aspect of myself. Oh, yeah - and I make up words on a regular basis -- I'll write my own dictinary one day. And since Scrabble is my favorite game, I really piss myself off sometimes since I'm convinced that my words should be REAL words.

I love to read/write, I get lost in music and I love with all my passion and soul. I'm in love with my kid and I'll boast about him to no end. I'll take up for him to the death and he is my world. I'm so quirky but only to everyone's benefit.

Anyhow, that's me. If you took the time to read this, you know me as well as others that have taken years to figure me out. In a very complicated way, I'm a pretty simple to get person -- if you pay attention.

I can seem snarky at times but I usually don't mean to be. If I say I'm sorry for being snarky after being called out on it, I'm completely sincere about it....but if I mean to be snarky, I'll be the FIRST to admit it....I never try to cover it up by "but it came out wrong" unless it really did. (and I do fuck up some times). If I'm being snarky, I'll tell it to your face but then I'll tell you why -- you'll probably agree.

Anyway, I'm addicted to this site and I have been since I joined on the old boards about 3? years ago, maybe?? I'm really a sweet person and not as cynincal as I seem to be on here.

I'll try to post more often. I used to to be one of those girls that would post a thousand or so posts a day and continually press refresh to see if there was a response. Now, I'm lucky if I can check in a couple of times a week (web filters at work) and even when I do, chances are, I don't have too much time to respond. (snatching time on my boyfriend's laptop when he decided to bring it home from work)

OH! I forgot!! I'm a LACTIVIST....I'm a total breastfeeding advocate and it's what I miss most about my baby not being a baby anymore. Nursing was like, the BEST experience ever for me and it's a huge driving force in why I desperately want another baby sooooo badly.

Anyhow, I ramble and I really do talk too much in real life. But I also know how to listen and will help any person in any way I can. I just wanted to be very thorough since I don't' post enough to let my personality "shine" through.

And finally, something I haven't posted yet.....Alli, you will be missed. When I first came to GM, Alli was posting about a million times a day. I miss the debates, the conversations, the everything. The most important thing I learned from Alli is to never say "I would never do XYZ." She helped me realize that we NEVER know what we would do until we are in that situation. That's a huge lesson in life to learn. I have a lot of feelings welling up inside of me about that awesome women but I haven't figured out how to sum it up. When I figure it out,I'll put in here.

Well, that's me. Thanks for reading this far down and getting to know me. Email is the best way to contact me since I can't check this site at work.

if you need or want me for anything.

Much love,

Sisica