Well, I just loaded my precious cargo onto an airplane for Greece. He'll be gone for a little over a month. My mother is taking my son and my brother.
As my sweet little child disappeared onto the escalator going to the gate, I fell into a heavy sobbing session. My child is gone for a month - aren't I supposed to feel some sort of relief about actually having some time to myself? This gives me a month to focus on my new relationship. It gives me the opportunity to have a spotless house. It gives me the freedom to go out at night. I am so sad. I don't know how to function without my child. I already miss him.
I told my son about 500 times that I"m going to miss him -- his response: "I know, you ALREADY TOLD ME THAT!" How will I deal with him being gone for so long? What if something happens? I won't be there with him. Ohhhh.....I NEED my child!!!
Why does being a mother hurt so much??
I can really empathise with how you're feeling mama. My darling boy has been away for 3 weeks now at a health camp. These are therapeutic camps that provide support for kids with various health/behavioural/learning issues, and/or kids from families in crisis. He's there for help with learning and behavioural issues, and to give me some respite, and the camp lasts for another 2 weeks.
The first day was the hardest, I felt like the centre had been pulled out of my universe.
Then I started to enjoy myself a little, and then I got sick for a fortnight, bloody hell. I'm better now, and I have a wee constant ache for my boy. I'm missing the stress and frustration and the sweetness.
How am I going to cope when he's a grown up and has to leave home?
Anyway, sorry for rambling on about myself. Sending you lots of supportive vibes, be good to yourself. Make this time special for you, and before you know it your sweet boy will be back with you!! :)
the first time austin stayed over somewhere (his dads house) i got all dolled up and was going to go out with the girls . Want to know what i did instead? i sang old-mcdonalds farm seven milliontimes over my cell phone till he fell asleep .My (childless) friends were disgusted. I was back to pick him up as soon as he woke up in the morning. He is a mommas boy..I cant help but love his chubby little arms flying up when he sees me. I just eat it up. :wink:
Sounds like a great plan to me. When he comes back and won't sleep or listen to you, you can use the "he just got back from Greece" excuse again.
As much as I wish I could put mine on a plane to visit my mum...
Ah, anyway where was I?
I suppose you get so used to knowing where they are and how they are doing and providing that when you don't have to a gaping whole appears.
Poor Sisica!
Hope you manage to enjoy your break and party up a little.
As much as I wish I could put mine on a plane to visit my mum...
Ah, anyway where was I?
I suppose you get so used to knowing where they are and how they are doing and providing that when you don't have to a gaping whole appears.
Poor Sisica!
Hope you manage to enjoy your break and party up a little.
((hugs)) While I don't know what you are going through or how you're feeling, by what you wrote it sounds like it sucks. I'm so sorry! I hope you're able to enjoy the freedom after awhile. Are you planning on writing to him everyday? Maybe you could write in a journal of all the things "mommy did" while he was gone and ask someone to help him make a "journal" (Like pictures and things) that he does while he was away. That way you'll both have a lot of things to talk about and remember when he comes back and when he's older.