i guess i should introduce myself....
my name is dee and i'm 18 years old and am 36 weeks pregnant with my first child. i am very excited and am eagerly anticipating my due date, august 19, 2006 even tho it seem soooo far away.
i hid my pregnancy for the first 5 months because i was away at college and when my boyfriend finally told my mom it went better than expected...for my side of the family. when his mother found out, it was awful. she hates me. she has been trying to convince him the whole time that i am some awful whore, which i'm not, who is just out to trap him. throughout all this, he has still remained supportive by my side tho, and for that i am grateful.
his mom is paying for a paternity test that we agreed to make her feel better and because i know i have NOTHING to hide. i have only had two partners and those two people weren't even in the same year!
the only thing is...i cannot bring myself to forgive her for all the awful lies she has told my family about me. she wants so bad for this child not to be her son's that she even lied to my mom and told her that i said i was a lesbian...bizarre...i know. she calls me a slut. a whore. an alcoholic. a liar. she says that i am the devil and i am a gold digger. and all things outlandishly insulting.
i dont know if i will ever get past my anger towards her to allow her to be a part of my son's life when he is born. when the paternity tests come back...yeah, she'll look stupid, but it will only infuriate me more. i dont want people like her to be a part of his life. she is frighteningly unstable and i fear i will NEVER trust her alone with my son. i wish she would just go away.
what should i do?