Today was just a really STRANGE day. Let me start by saying... BD and I have been together for 6 yrs (since we were 15). We have a 5 yr old and a 15 mo old together. We just got married last month.
Today started like any other day, except when BD got home from work around 10am (he works nights), he was crying. He informed me that he got into an argument with someone at work and the guy pushed him to the ground. He called the cops and pressed charges.
So a couple hours later, he tells me something that I found very upsetting (pertaining to mine and my children's safety). I was very angry, but didn't want to argue in front of the kids, so I showed my anger by throwing my wedding band out of the car window (stupid, I KNOW).
Well he got SO ANGRY and demanded that I go back and pick it up (in the middle of traffic). I refused and drove home. He immediately called his brother (about 200 miles away) and tells him that he's moving in with him, that he doesn't want to be with me. I started laughing because he's never said anything like that and we've been through SO MUCH together. I can't imagine him breaking apart our family over something like this.
We got home a few minutes later and I was still thinking it's funny that he's doing this "show". He proceeds to pack up ALL his clothes and took out ALL his belongings from the garage. He walks out the door saying, "Let's see who's laughing when it's time to pay the bills."
Y'see... I don't work outside the home and NEVER have. I am a stay at home mom and I babysit. I work VERY HARD, I just don't make money doing what I do,well not much. So he knows that the whole family relies on him financially. We have over $1700 in monthly bills.
So that's very stressful to me. He said he's going straight to the bank to pull his money out.
Now the sad thing is... I'm not even upset about him leaving. I'm only concerned about the money situation. If I knew I could pay my bills without him (and still have time for my children), I wouldn't even WANT him to come back. I'm starting to think that I don't really love him. Maybe I've just been using him so that I can be a SAHM, while he pays all the bills.
It's just been such a strange day. First with his incident at work, then the incident in the car, him leaving, and my realization that maybe I don't love him (or want to be with him).
I'm so confused.