I signed up today to drive to Albany tomorrow (2+ hours away) to take a 4 hour test that determines whether or not I'll be accepted in to the Grad program here.
I feel hopeless. There is too much crap going on, yet I don't have a choice. I have to take them to get *A* score, any score, because without them, I will not even be considered.
I just feel like shit because it cost $130 that I never had, but especially don't now (I charged it, almost maxing out my card). And I am totally unprepared for this exam. It is serious business and I have suprised myself at how mediocre I have done on the few practice questons I did tonight.
Yet, I can't NOT apply for this Spring... there are too many implications- financially and otherwise if I don't go. Plus it would be a waste of almost 8 months. Sophia is established at the childcare center and I don't want to uproot her. I need to be a student to get the grant that pays for her to be there.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am LOSING it. ALL of it.
Well, this is purely a ramble... just keep me in your thoughts tomorrow afternoon.
It's okay. The GREs are not that bad. Answer as much as you can, breathe deeply, and relax -- most programs really don't care what your scores are as long as they're above a minimum (often mandated by the university, not the department).
Thanks for that, Meghan. The Grad Advisor (he's on the committee & THE guy for my prgram) told me there are no cutoffs because they like to look holistically at the student. I appreciate that, as it makes sense to me, but still I love to doubt.
I am a strong student otherwise, but even so, they only accept around ONE student in Spring every THREE YEARS.
I dont know about that program I just wanted tosay good luck I hope you do well on your test!
Hope it went well! :)
I took the GRE around this time last year and it was a breeze. ;) I'm sure it was for you, too. It was NOTHING compared to the damn MCAT!