so i dont know if any of you remember but me and my doctor are not really on the same page about anything. n e way today i went in for a checkup and we were talking about the delivery i explained to her that i would like not to have an epidural and to definitely not have an episiatomy (sp). n e way her response to me was she does not know why some women act so stupid and stubborn about the epidural and that it is one of the greatest things yada yada then she says that it is easier for her to stitch me if she cuts me rather than if i tear. i told her that i did not tear with gabriel and the doctor also wanted to do an episiatomy but because i was fully aware i screamed at him and he did not do it. she is just so fucking annoying and i cant even really change doctors because i have this fuckin medicaid plan and the next closest doctor is like and hour and 30 min away and who knows if they would be any better. she just makes me really dread gong into labor.