Farytales don't always have a happy ending do they? And that's the only thing I think of these days. My life and how perfect everyone says it's going to be and how well the father and I get along....... but I know that somethimes it's too much for him and too much for me and neither one of us will admit it to eachother even though we know. I just keep thinking of all the times I cried because we are so happy together. The distace kills me everyday though, not knowing if the next phone call I get will be one telling me that he's MIA or only coming home to be in a oak house below the ground. I wonder everyday if the last time we saw eachother was all I could do, all we could be to make eachother happy. I still spot people on the street from behind thinking it's him and when I catch up to them and see their face I just think of how stupid that was. Our song comes on the radio and I can't help but think of all the times we've been there for eachother. And truthfully I'm scared to tell him what's on my mind because I don't want him to worry. Sometimes I even get the smell of him when I walk into a room as if it lingers around me, but that just makes me smile mostly. I don't really know the point of this writing, I guess I just felt the need to unload a bit that's all.
I think waiting for someone who is in the armed forces is extremely hard. But you have to think positive of it all. If you think positively of it you might just feel better. Try making the most of your phone calls when you can, if he has access to e-mail try to write him (or letters work too!). Send pictures. And remember its only temporary. Once he knows about the pregnancy keep him updated on it. Make him feel like he is a part of it all even if he is far away. Like I said it can suck but try to make the best of it, if you can. And try to spend time with your friends and family while he is away. It can be a good release and keep your mind off of it.
my brother is in the military and was just sent over in march and already home with his wife and son for leave. Forever his wife was calling and saying that he was calling on black out and that she was worried. Ive talked to him alot we are really close and though i know its not the same no where near really. but i wont watch the news and worry every time i talk to my sister in law that this time is the time she is gonna say he is gone. If you have family use them. Talk to them and keep them close. Enjoy your pregnacy and concetrate on that and how happy he will be when he finds out and when he has that baby in his arms. Try and use your pregnancy to keep your self busy. Ask freinds to stay with you and help you shop or browse for baby stuff. Ask them to keep you busy. It helps alot when you have something else to keep your mind on the now and not the what ifs because what ifs get you no where. If you need to talk just im me
Yeah I kind of try to spend time with everyone but I always end up being the one trying to cheer everyone else up and I really don't have to modivation for that right now. I mean everyone sees me as the girl that always has a solution for everything and knows I'm the one person they can come to no matter what. They don't notice that maybe sometimes I can be the girl that's lost and needs a little reassurance every once and a while. I guess they've gotten so used to the fake laugh and the fake smile and this big mask I put on so everyone else will be somewhat happy at the time that they don't realize it's a mask anymore, they just think I'm fine. I mean sure my best friend notices and everything but I'm not sure he understands. I'm not sure anyone understands me lately. Sometimes I just think it's me.
Im sorry. Im that girl in my family and try and explain to them that right now you cant be and dont need to be that girl. Explain that with whats going on its not good for you to be stressed. Its not that you dont want to help them anymore or be there for them but you really need them to be there for you. I had to do that more than once while i was pregnant and the stress really isnt good for you or your baby. PM me if you wanna talk.