Girl-moming in the '09!

I'm here, kinda, I have a hard time with this format, it is unlike ANY other message board, so it is hard to get use to.
I'm married now, depressed, have high anxiety, generally not doing too well. Don't really feel like i made the best choice, feel TRAPPED. I just had an abortion 2 weeks ago. I also just started a Paramedic program last week.
Alexa is almost 5. That means I have been on gm for around 5 and a half years now. thats a long time
Blake is around 16 months now, and has some major gross motor delays still. He just started cruising, he is talking up a storm tho, sometimes hard to understand, he does not stop talking.
I miss my friends, I moved to east hartford 2 years ago, left everything behind for HIM, I feel like really just frustrated i did everything like that. He called alexa a cry baby today. and i feel like shit.

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mama to Alexa 3/25/04 and Blake 9/18/07

"This land is yours and this land is mine
What that means is nobody can own the rights "

I'm here too.

Ds is almost 3 years old, and he's doing really well. He still goes to daycare four days/week while I go to school online. I've been having a hard time the last few months getting my work done on time. Life is still pretty quiet for us. I don't date at all, and haven't since I got pregnant.

We did get a dog! He's 8 years old and we got him from the SPCA. He's laid back like us and ds loves him.

I would like the boards to be more active too, but I also agree that the board format is hard to get used to.

I'm 34 weeks pregnant, due February 28th with a boy, so I've been pretty busy just getting ready for him to get here. My baby shower is next week so hopefully I'll get some of the stuff I still need, I've bought pretty much everything already though myself. BD and I worked out most of our problems and are still together, I still feel like we argue way too often but I'm really trying with him. I just finally went back to college, I've been out of school since I graduated in 07. I started in the nursing program at a local school, I'd like to get into women's health someday I think, but I guess we will see =] Other than that I've just been working at the movie theater still, I'll be going out on leave in 5 weeks though and I'm taking 12 weeks off to just focus on the new baby and doing my schoolwork. I still live at home with my mom, and BD lives with his parents but we're hoping to get our own apartment in the beginning of May after I get my school money back. It's going to be difficult for the first few months after the baby's born, going between houses but hopefully everything works out and it won't last too long.

I am here.

I am working now, A Social Worker. Working with a mobile crisis unit, and absolutly loving it. Looking to upgrade my degree hopefully. Married to my BD. It will be 2 years in June. Still crazy in love with eachother. Julian just turned three. He's going to pre-school, and daycare. Doing well in both. Potty training, talking up a storm, obsessed with Montser Trucks, and an animal lover like his mommy! Fanatically into yoga these days. Just lost 20lbs, and damn proud of it. Smiling as much as I can, and putting 100% effort into maintaing my sanity and happiness :)

I'm 23 now. I got my last high-school credit in December and started my first term of university in January. I'm absolutely stoked to have stopped doing my soul crushing joe job as a server 5 days a week. Now I only go in once or twice. It means I'm living in debt and pretty broke. But it's still better than the alternative. University is going well, probably because I haven't had any assignments yet. I could be chewing on those words next month. I like that the challenge is with my mind though, it is so much more fulfilling than my crappy serving job was. My kiddo will be 4 in March. He's finally talking well but refusing to potty train. He is turning into a very sweet, smart, sensitive, imaginative and sympathetic person and my love and appreciation for him grows everyday. My baby-daddy and I are getting along this week. Not every week is good though, a lot of them are rough. My older sister (shes nearly 25) is pregnant and due in April. She is as scared and unprepared as everyone else I've known. But we're all very excited.

I've been really, really busy. I'm pregnant again, in graduate school, and doing a full-time internship teaching at a school downtown. Finn is amazing, boisterous, and bright as ever. He's three and a half and so curious and creative that it blows me away almost all the time. My relationship is really better than it's ever been. My partner is wonderful, loving, and supportive. This pregnancy has made me exhausted all the time, and I typically end up falling asleep rather than doing anything that I've planned to do (work, fun, whatever), so it's nice to have a partner who can pick up some of my slack. I mentioned to somebody recently that I don't remember being this tired last time I was pregnant, and she replied, "well, you didn't have a kid the last time you were pregnant." Heh. That might be part of it. My goal for 2009 is to find a class on Hatian Creole because I would really love to learn the basics of that language. Anyway, I'm doing well. I hope you all are too!

Wow! So much is going on with you all!

Danielle - I'm so sorry to hear that! Let us know how we can help! Are you in counseling? I remember you talking about the paramedic program; way to go! Feel free to use GM as a sounding board. We want to be here for you!

xoAxWESOxo - Your pregnancy has been going by so fast! I'm glad to hear things are getting better with your BD, and I hope things continue to get better. Some of it might just be the stress; you seem to have a lot going on.

Hilary - Congrats!

Me? Things are going pretty well. I got married last month. We sent away for the insurance, but it should be here any day. Glasses! Fillings! Teagan's teeth are continuing to decay; I've been trying a lot of allopathic and alternative remedies to stop this, but I'm feeling pretty hopeless in this aspect of my life. I also had been looking for a nanny gig, but the rejection has started to get to me. That spring is coming and my garden planning has started in earnest is starting to cheer me up. Also, with insurance coming in, we've been very seriously talking about having a second kid. Excited about having another little one in the house. Terrified of my parents' reaction. We'll see. We finally paid off our debt. We have decent savings - working on saving up for a house. We're just in such a better place this time, it can't be as bad as last time, right?

wow reading this makes me realize how all of us mamas have grown. i remember coming on here a very scared 16 yr old girl and am now a 22yr old women.

i have been doing well, working ALOT!!! bd got laid off right before thanksgiving and it has been a struggle to find a new job. he has enrolled in college which is definitely a plus. we are in the process of planning our wedding which has been a lot of fun! gabriel is 4 i cant believe he will be going into kindergarten in September. the time has flown by...aiden is 1 he is progressing well and following his brother wherever he goes.

I'm still around. SO and I are getting married in september, and it's about the only thing in life really exciting me right now. I love him so much! We went through a really rough patch a year or so ago, but things have improved a lot. He answered my call for help and has really stepped it up in terms of not allowing everything to fall onto my shoulders.

Matt...well...he's not doing so great. I don't think we've got the right behavioral diagnosis/right medication/right anything going on with him. I've got another teacher meeting coming up where everyone can tell me how awful he is. I'm getting the number of a neurologist from a coworker and I'm going to get him evaluated again. I don't think the fly-by-night clinic I was directed to (by my government insurance...surprise) did a good evaluation or are addressing his needs very well at all. Raising a special needs kid is no walk in the damn park, I'm telling you that. The doctor he's at now didn't even do his eval, he was evaluated a year ago by a doctor we saw once, slapped with the ADHD label and we were sent on our way. I don't think he has ADHD, I think there's something going on in his brain that is not psychological, but more physical. Some synapse isn't firing right, I don't know, but hopefully the neurologist will be able to tell us more and actually do something that will help. He'll also be getting an IEP so the school will be forced to HELP him rather than just keep telling me how great an option private school would be, like his teacher keeps doing. Just shit me the money, babe.

Wow, I'm going to be 24 this year.... I have been here since I was either 19, or just 20.... that's hard to believe.

I am doing really really well. I absolutely cannot complain.

BD and I were officially married for a year this past October, we have been together since '04. We're doing well. I certainly have days when I wonder what the hell is up with him... but I know he feels the same way.
I really love him.

At the end of the day, we're in each others corners.

A is three, she is SO funny. She repeats everything.... She started ballet this fall, and just loves it. She's really... in charge... she likes to organize the girls in her class... who are 4 and 5.
She is a really awesome big sister!!!!!!!!!!!!

N is 6 months old... She said 'Mama' on Friday. I cried... I don't know if I'm going to have anymore babies... so I'm trying to really cherish every moment. (Its still sad though...) I have had an amazing opportunity to really process labor and birth through having her... there was a lot of healing there for me. (I have had some physical healing too, my midwife was able to repair the COMPLETE MESS the OB made of my perineum... GO MIDWIFE~!)

We are looking at moving off the farm, into a nearby small town... There's advantages and disadvantages... but overall I think it would be a positive thing.

I switched to part-time midwifery. I was going full-time, and it was ok when N was really little, but lately it has become just a bit too much. I was getting to the point of being really stressed, really miserable, and I was taking it out on the ones who mean the most to me... I had to draw the line.
I'm sort of sad because I wanted to do the Bachelors in 4 years, and then start doing the Canadian aspects to practice here... Now I'm on a 5 year (plus) plan... but that's life. I start a course next Sunday, and I'm really excited. In the meantime I'm working on birth experience as a birth doula.... and taking baby steps towards venipuncture... eek!

Thats about it!
I'm so glad you created this thread Charlie... its great to hear what everyone is up to again... I feel so out of the loop.

I started my second year of college. I wish I was done with pre-req's already. I have to remind myself constantly to look at the bigger picture. *sigh*
I've been unemployed for almost a year, so I started applying for jobs today.
I'm still with my boyfriend, six years in December. We have our issues but, overall, things are good between us. We don't have plans of getting married anytime soon, probably never. Idk, it just isn't a big deal to us.
As for the kids, they are well. Jackie got tested for the gifted and talented program so we are waiting for the results on that. Ben turned 7 in January. It turns out he needs glasses, so now I'll have two kids with glasses. Frankie will turn 4 in May and start school in August. I am seriously excited about that, lol. Evie is 1.5 months and she is such a great baby! All she does is sleep and eat, hahaha.
I think this year is going to bring a lot of changes for us; I hope they're all for the best. :D

I'm still going to school, I should be finishing up in august or december depending on if the class I need is offered over the summer and a few other details. So I'm excited/scared about that! I'm still seeing the same guy, for a little over a year now, and things are going alright with him, so that is good. I will hopefully be starting an internship soon which will be awesome! I'm really excited about it. As far as my son goes, he's 4 and a half (!!) I can't believe how grown up he is. He's starting to learn to read and write and is in a pre-k program this year, but I think I will wait and send him to k in 2010 because he will be so young (turning 5 at the end of the summer). I'm having a few problems with him regarding his temper, but I think its more the age and I'm not really worried at all for now. Charlie-I'm glad that you are working so hard on getting gm back up to pace, its really nice to have this community!

25 now, Full time graduate student in my last semester of coursework, then on to a year long internship, school psychology. Moving on Saturday (locally). Eloped secretly last year, but have a formal wedding date this October. My darling daughter is 4 1/2 now and amazing in every respect, she still never fails to make me thankful on a daily basis. I just adore her so much now that we are past power struggles and on to all the awesome curiosities that pop into her head "How do babies fit out of vaginas? Babies are big and vaginas are small." She's been really into death/afterlife discussions lately, too. I feel like "YOU ARE 4! STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS STUFF!" But of course, I have to roll with it and answer what I can. SO works 2 jobs (always has) and lost one, but was able to pick up another which was good. Looking forward to the school loan and massive tax refund to come through. So I guess that's about it. We're overall doing well here, just struggling with enjoying the now while still focusing on the future, you know?

I am now 24 which is a HUGE thing for me seeing as I came to GM a scared 17 year old mama of a newborn just diagnosed with cancer. Ariana is now 6 and in the 1st grade and doing wonderful!! She is so smart and fun to be around. Peyton turned 4 in Dec and I she is "go" mode from the time she opens her eyes till she closes them at night!! She is talking so much and asking just as many questions. The only real problem we have encountered is that she is a VERY picky eater and will only eat about a handful of things which makes meal times a complete nightmare. Umm...I am in school for business management!! Half way done now :) Sean and I have been married for almost 5 years in August but the biggest news of all is that he has joined the Army. He will be shipping out on the 11th to Ft.Jackson, SC and then to Georgia for a grand total of 24ish weeks. We are now adjusting to life without him and this is a huge deal and issue for me because we have been together for so long. I know this has more to do with my issues so I will be working on them. As of this year I will make 3 years CANCER free!! The stem cell transplant is considered successful in two more years but I am happy to be this far along. The only other news is we found out that we are unable to have future children due to the massive amounts of chemo I had to have but I am so happy with my girls. I am just trying to keep it all together for my girls and Sean so we shall see how this goes

hrmmm... maybe I will move up to MA and go to college with you in a year or two... I love money for education!!

p.s. you rock :)