Ok work with me I on a lot of meds right now I cant see or think straight so this may not make much since but here it goes.
J and I have been married for 3 yr. When I 16-18 I was on zoloft,ritilin,and lorazapan. For manic, OCD,ADHD,and poss. Bi-Polar disorder. I took myself off becuase I never wanted them in the first place.
now 3 years later I find myself with a baby , husband , stressful job. And I cant handle it anymore. My old psych is gone until sept 23. Thats too far away . So I went to my general practioner who gave my EFFXOR XR,and AMBIEN. He wanted my to talk to a consuelor So today I went to her and she recommended addmitting me but she knews how much I love my baby. So she gave me this option Intensive Outpaitent Treatment for 1 week . Today was I first meeting.
My husband doesnt want all these people getting into our live and isn't supportive when I came home. The Dr. made to take a week off but Josh is all worried about losing my job. I talked to my work and they told me my only jod this week is to get better.
Josh just doesnt to shit around here. and he thinks someone owes him father of the year for watching is own son for five fuckung minutes so I can talk to guys or pee.
please help me!! The people at group arent in my boat I know some you must be right?
Someone please help me????reply
Well, it sounds like your place of work is behind you, so that's one hurdle.
Now you have to deal with BD. Is there anyone else that can watch your child while you go to meetings?
It sounds like BD isn't quite grown up himself, and isn't prepared to take care of his child.
Kudos to you, though, for taking care of yourself. It will pay off in the long run!
I agree that having someone supportive like a friend or family member to watch your son while you take care of you is a wonderful idea! Good luck!
I suffer from bi-polar myself, and I ended up having to be institutionalized last winter because I went so long without treatment. If you want to e-mail or something, just to have someone to talk with, pm me.
It's really hard dealing with bi-polar when you have a small one, especially if your partner is unstable themselves. Have you thought about doing family counseling? While he might not be all into it, it may help for him to realize just what you are dealing with. It's what it took for mine to realize that I wasn't lazy or irresponsible, just extremely out of my mind.
Are your parents around/do you want them to be? It might help your peace of mind to have a back-up caregiver as it sounds like you (for good reasons) are afraid to rely on your partner to take care of your child. Also, research your medicines. Alot of doctors will just give patients whatever they always give for a particular disease (especially when it comes to mental illness) without looking at particular cases. When it comes to bi-polar, depending on the symptoms you have, many medicines are contra-indicated. Like I said, I've sort of been through the gamut on this one.
It sounds like you aren't going to get the support you need from your partner. Is there anyone else in your life, like family or trusted friends, who can come help you out with your baby and your house while you're going through this? Do you think your partner might understand more if you got one of the doctors/counselors you're seeing to talk to him about how important it is to help you out right now, both around the house and by being supportive of you? It's great that you are taking steps to help yourself, but it sounds like your partner is doing nothing but holding you back. Good luck mama.
If you can't see straight, then I think you need to get your medication adjusted. That's not a good side effect, and your dose may be too high.
As far as Josh goes, I think you need to sit down and have an honest talk with him. Try to avoid getting emotional. Explain to him that you need the therapy and that you've already spoken to your employer about it. Let him know the support group is not going to get in on your lives and that your employer is okay with you taking a week off. They're supportive of you, so why shouldn't Josh be, too?
If you're stressed out over Josh's behavior, it's going to be hard for you to relax and "get better" this week. I hope you can pull through. ((hugs))
Thanks girls! So far I've felt a little better. Josh still isn't doing anything but I just dont give fuck anymore as soon as I'm stable I WANT A DIVORCE! As for the blurred vision its was my sleeping it pill kicked in a little too fast that night. My parents are around but 3 kids under 11 and 2 11mos. old babies. They do what they can but I dont want to add to their stress. I dont trust his family to watch cody. I'm managing right now. I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still here. I sounded so bad that night didnt want anyone to worry.