I feel horrible, but theirs a part of me that still misses BD. I mean, he hurt me so much and I can never come to terms with what he did to me, but a part of me will never stop loving him. He was my first and only love. I gave my entire heart and soul to him and he stomped all over it, but a part of me wants to give it right back to him. When I saw him, I melted. I wanted to bad to be in his arms. I feel naive and stupid for even saying this. I am supposed to be strong. I need to be strong, and here I am falling for him all over again. I dont know what to do. I know that I can never forgive him for what he did to me. I just feel like Im a failure for even thinking these thoughts.