My Story (may contain triggering material)

Hi as You know I'm from australia I'm 21 years old and have two children and one foetus!

I would just like to share with you all of my story

I first met BD when I was 14 and we started dating ( via long distance relationship) that developed into him coming over during the day to go on dates and that in turn developed into me going to his house for dates and then staying overnight and everything was going well and one day I tried to call him and I couldnt get through and his mother wouldnt talk to me later that day I found out that he had tried to commit suicide he had taken all the perscription medicine in his cabnet at home. His parents said it was my fault and that not seeing me was the best thing for him so we broke up for a while. I didnt contact him for about 6 months and then one day out of the blue he had called me and told me he loved me that he told his parents that he couldnt live without me and they had agreed to let me bak into his life. So we started dating again and everything was good again for a while but my parents never really liked him that much and they then refused to let me see him and I wasnt taking that so I argued and often got beaten when they knew I had been out with him.

So one day I came home from school before my parents got home from work and packed up all my things and ran away with him to his house which is about an hour and a half from where my parents live. My parents tried to get me back but there was nothing they could to as I had just turned 16 (the legal age here in oz)
I continued to stay in wollongong with BD and started a new school and all that when I became Pregnant, I wasnt really disappointed because I has always wanted a baby. His parents soon guessed I was Pregnant when I started to get Sick suddenly every morning before school so I went with his mother to the doc to have it confirmed and then was the case of telling my mother which wasnt as hard as I thought come to think of it I had his grandmother tell her for me which now I look back I should of done it myself.(damn hindsight)

So I went on going to school through my pregnancy and everything was going well BD had a good paying job and I was at school doing reasonably well and looking after our foetus with regular doctors visits.

Then BD turned 18 and that was it he was out at clubs everynight drinking taking heaps of drugs and partying with so many different people every night he eventually got fired from his job from having too many days off hed verbally abuse me and all the while I was thinking,' he's only scared once the baby is here he will change his ways" well with a week to go until I had my first baby he had taken off and I couldnt find him I was on bedrest he came home and said he wanted to be there for me and to call him if I went into labour!

Well I had Midwives come to my home to do al my tests and I started to feel a little funny they said it was probably braxton hicks and to just take it easy.
The next day it got a little worse and I had a show so I called BD and said look I think I'm starting labor and he told me that I was lieing and I just wanted him to come home and stop partying he then turned off his mobile and was unreachable for the next two days.

By the time I gave in to his mother and went to the hospital I was definatly in labor but I didnt want to go without him, I had to I spent Five hours in full blown labor and he eventually came to the hospital just intime to see me get stitched up!He was so high on drugs I'm surprised he knew what was going on I mean I'd just given birth but I seemed more with it than him!!! he missed the whole birth and everything I will never forgive him for that!

I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy Michael Jacob 6pound 2ounces on the 1st of october 2000 at 10.32am!
Thats all I really want to write right now cause there are more things I will post later but it's still a little painful to relive all the memories I'm sure you can understand.

Its really good therapy just to let it all out even though I've gotten on with my life it was just good to get that off my chest thanx for listening!!