I feel very lucky to have found the man that i want to spend the rest of my life together at the age of 16. I am 19 now and i am SO in love with him. He is the only man i have ever had sex with. He was my first true love. I trust him more than anyone i have ever been with. It is really hard for me to trust men, my dad left when i was 6 mon. old. I always felt like it was my fault, becuase my mom and dad had been married for a long time and had 2 other little girls that were 4 and 2, and then i came along. and i have always wondered if i could have done somethng to make him stay, was i too fussy. that kind of thing. And my mom has been remarried 2 times since then. And i don't think i can remember a time when my mom didn't have a man in her and our lives. So alot of men have been in and out of my life. Including past boyfriends of mine. I was raped when i was 16 by my boyfriend at the time. SO that just added to my trust issues. Me and Jeremy got together shortly after. We have been together off and on for the better part of 3 years. It's more on then off! We spend alot of time together and have a very strong relationship. I think it gets hard for him sometimes, because alot of his friends like me, and want to be with me. Not like they ever would try anything, because we are all good friends too. But they tell Jeremy that all the time. I think it is a compliment. But that's just me. We always knew that we would get married and have kiddes together. But we always wanted to wait till we were a little more stable. But i couldnt be happier and neither could he. I am due 2 days before his 21 birthday, i turn 20 a month after. When i told him that he said that would be the perfect birthday present! I was so cute! he's going to be SUCH a good dad! He is so good with my neice reese and loves her SO much! I can't wait. I am a very lucky girl-mom!