You know I got to thinking and I can not really say I had an 'Orthodox Christian' marriage. My relationship was formed out in the world. We got married in the American Protestant Fundamentalist Cult Orthodox church, or APFCO. When we left APFCO, our marriage fell apart, much to my relief. It did not survive the transition into the Orthodox Church in America. I would not mind being single if it were not for my daughter. That is the heartbreaker. She is doing fine...Her daddy is the same as he ever was.
Today I went to a lecture on the prophecy of ezekiel at the local orthodox cathedral. I told my baby daddy about this two weeks ago. So today I get a message from him on my cell phone. He had driven to my town and wanted to know where I was because he wanted our daughter's wetsuit from out of my apartment.
Back in May or June my baby daddy forced his way into the apartment and I had to call the police. I am still very traumatized by this. I have a book called I just Can't get over it about ptsd and I am reading it and they do have a section on domestic violence.
By the way, does anyone have a references to domestic violence discussion forums? I was supposed to go to a group for abused women, and then and anger management class, but due to lack of personal transportation and child care it is not happening.
Anyways...I will not let my baby daddy have a key to my apartment. I do not trust him. He was violent with his last girlfriend. He knows he will get arrested if he ever tries that again, but I am still traumatized, like I said...
I did not criticize him when I returned his call. I had to prepare myself to call him...he has not changed in the 9 years I have known him, and this is the father of my child...what shame.
But I learned today it is good I have shame, that is how I will enter the kingdom of heaven. God does not like the proud. This is from a Lebanese professor, a very loving man.